My First Girl Crush

So I don’t claim to be any sexuality, really.  You can’t control who your attracted to, and I’m quite comfortable with that.  I am who I am, and prefer to not let labels or definitions created by others define me.  But its safe to say I am mostly into guys.

But I also like girls.

I remember growing up, having weird feelings towards other females.  I never understood it, and felt that something was wrong with me.  Well, once I figured out how to think for myself (which occurred at age 2, according to my Mother) I realized that while I favored guys, I was attracted to girls as well, and that it was more than okay.  However it wasn’t until last year that I finally found a girl that I was truly interested in.

Elise.  I met her through mutual friends, and the attraction was instant.  Not to my surprise, Elise was a lesbian, and had a long-time partner.  Bummer.  But that, nor my boyfriend at the time, stopped me from developing a huge schoolgirl crush on her.  Big time.

Most of the time we spent together was with our friends, and oddly enough, her girlfriend never seemed to be around.  However we did get to know each other fairly well.  She was a bit of a geek, which I loved.  She spoke with a very soft, sweet voice, but had the quickest wit and most easy-going disposition.  She had short, brown hair, and wore dark, square-rimmed glasses.  Her smile was more than contagious, it could turn your day around.  She had the most gorgeous, fuller figure, her curves were just amazing.  Her ass was just plump and perfect. I often daydreamed about what it would be like to kiss her soft, red lips and rub my hands over her creamy, fair skin.  I was smitten, and looking back, it had to be completely obvious.

One day at a friends house, I was in the bathroom changing into a lighter shirt. I had worn long sleeves and it was simply too hot in the Charleston summer.  Not thinking, I didn’t lock the door, and Elise came barging in, me standing there in my bra.  She immediately blushed, and became quite flustered.  She looked at me, then mumbled something and quickly left.  It was one of the most adorable things I had ever seen.

I never made a move on Elise, I knew she really cared about her partner and did not want my little crush to selfishly complicate things for her.  Do I regret that?  No.  Elise is one of the nicest people I know, and deserves to be happy.  I have since fallen out of touch with Elise, but I happened to pass her the other day on the sidewalk.  I got nervous, and being the ass that I am, pretended like I didn’t see her, and I’m pretty sure she didn’t see me anyways.  But, I did get a quick look.  And she was still as beautiful as I remember.